Bootsie for DML music blog

Lately I have been ignoring my very own blog to write snippets for http://www.dml.fm! Which I am so thankful for! Even though fashion and feeling have been my main genres, music has always been a sincere pleasure in my life and only just this past year was I allowing myself to get back into it, realizing how much I truly loved it and how it fed me. Although I haven’t posted all of my posts from DML on Bootsie, I have done a couple of the T-Swift ones, which actually I had written first here. I have done around 6 posts for DML so far. It’s a blast and I hope you all go to them for your new music needs, as I try and balance both my genres and love for writing to not only hopefully entertain you but myself as well.

We are never ever getting back together….

Disappointment. Is what I am feeling. A LET DOWN. Of sorts. This is what I get for having faith in Taylor Swift and her tweenage dreams. Come on girl, I finally thought you were heading towards the coming of age years, wearing more conservative clothing with less bling, and maybe possibly chopping off all your hair. What is this.. is all I can ask? 

Ad campaigns that suck.

I become a little kid at Christmas two days out of the year. On December 25, and the day I hold in my hands that years current Vogue September issue. I hold that glossy beacon of hope for the future with a gaiety and unmistakeable fashion nerd quality that shines through in the all so prevalent dumb smile on my face. I rush to the register, grabbing a San Pellegrino and probably a Phish Food Ben and Jerry’s on my way. Ready to devour little chocolate fishes and whatever else is swimming around in Anna Wintour’s latest creation. I flip through the first ad campaigns. Because obviously they are going to be works of couture art. You can imagine my dissapointment when I felt as though I was looking at last years Vogue..and the year before that as well. I am not one to criticize Louis Vuitton. And I am sure.. my friends can all vouch for me on that. I think the LV is about just as classic as the Chanel C’s. I just wished that this ad campaign actually made me happy.. but in fact it just pissed me the eff off. There is so much going on.. everywhere. I get that we’re bringing back the past, but we also need to look towards the future. This is like Dolce and Gabbanna ad campaign level.. and that’s a sting because D&G rarely sometime’s satisfies me. Especially loved their stuff in the early 2000’s. But honestly Louis V, I know that I don’t want to buy a single thing in those campaigns. The model’s look bored, as if they had been sitting on a train for 50 hours. I now associate the fall collection with smelly trains and a chance for an armed robbery or Sherlock Holme’s to come into my cabin. Which I admit sounds cool. I saw the collection walk down the runway, and it was interesting and beautiful. Why couldn’t you make this represent it? I feel as though when it comes to fashion that 9 times out of 10 the most simple items are the most beautiful and beautifully crafted. This Fall/Winter 2012 campaign, is not. So far the only campaign I can say I remember I loved was Christina Ricci’s campaign for you in 2008. I will always remember that one.. and these. I mean come on Louis, don’t let me down again!

Sincerely, your stalker.

Truths.

I am not going to lie to you. I am truly impressed by Taylor Swift these days. In the beginning, I thought that her country/pop market was nothing to be amazed by. Every song sounding the same, with the same relatable kick that made teenage girls, and guys even, swoon. I should have realized a long time ago that that’s not all she had in store for us. A woman growing up is a magical thing. Much like the magic she and her team have created in her single off her new album, “Red.” “We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together” is obviously a huge success, has a song title every single person on this Earth can relate too opposite monks and nuns. It was the first track to ever become iTunes number one within 48 hours, with over 620,000 buys within the first minutes. Now I usually blog about love and fashion and confidence, but since music is such a huge influence in my life I felt the need to share. Taylor Swift I was always hesitant to hear your songs on the radio and actually sing along. But fighting the urge was harder than actually singing to your simple tones and rhythms. I did not think of you as someone with exceptional talent, just marketability. But you have outdone yourself! Not that it matters hearing it from me, but holy shit girl you got my vote. I’m no longer team Kanye. Well, maybe sort of. Keep up with the good work. I can’t wait to hear the rest of the album, and see you progress even more. The whole Red theme… takes the cake. She describes in an interview with “Nightline” anchor Cynthia McFadden that all of the emotions she used to write it were represented by the color red. Is anger, jealousy, passion, and love considered to be yellow? So simple, makes complete sense. Yet the public is eating it up. As well as me. I love the depth red brings, and I’m sure we haven’t heard the deepest ballad yet from T-Swifty. On Oct. 23, and Oct. 23 Swift will perform her new album for Good Morning America viewers, sounds good to me!

October 22, check your iTunes!

 

The Story

Sometimes I just start writing things.
Here’s an example.

Have you ever just felt out of place? Not just speaking in terms of a corny song line. Literally like your body, mind, and spirit are out of whack. If you have, then you know how uncomfortable it is. You know that time feels of the essence but time is causing your worry and paranoia. Like when you feel you missed your exit or your alarm clock never went off. That feeling of having no control, but at the same time the control could have been yours. You could have paid more attention or you could have double checked your alarm. It’s almost scary. You’re throwing yourself into a different universe without even trying because your mind senses no wrong in it. Maybe you’re thinking “you’re too young for this” or maybe “too old.” Either way it’s happenning and you don’t know how to stop it. Just reading this makes you feel all of the symptoms I just desrcibed heightened. It’s one of those things that no outrageous amount of shopping coud fix. No amount of tampons could stop the bleeding. It’s just there. What is your explanation for it? I always thought mine was from a trauma that I suffered around a year ago. And I still think that. I’m just not sure if the reason it lingers; that leftover anxiety, is because of me or something beyond my control. Is it your mind that jumps off a bridge, or is it your body? Since your brain controls your legs, is it your thoughts or a need to move that navigates you? Or maybe it’s even something else. I truly miss the naivety that I had when I was a child. Youth is so truly taken for granted. Only one thing would have to happen to lose it all. To forget the little things and to just grow up without a choice. Only until that happens does one forget how it is to smell the pine trees or gingerbread and feel excitement flow through you. True smiles are hard to come by. The smiles that you feel flow through your veins, it’s starts at your mouth; it’s as though a warm liquid like hot chocolate makes its way from your mouth to your chest and conveniently warms your heart. Describing it in the best way becuse it’s almost indescribable. Like a blanket in the winter or your favorite pair of Ugg boots, you feel that warmth and comfort all over all the time. You know there is someone waiting to be with you, waiting to reunite with you as soon as you leave. It’s that waiting period that makes a person believe. Makes a person hopeful. If you’ve never had it you’re just excited to have it for that first time. It’s like if you wait and wait for an item to go on sale. Something you feel is so amazing you swear it’s worth the money, worth the patience and worth being excited over. But like anything new, it ages. It becomes worn, and younlove it a little less. Some people stay faithful to that love foreverm others see a new model and find a replacement. Or sometimes something goes wrong. Like it breaks, or becomes lost. There are some warrantees that just don’t cover that kind of thing. Once you have it the wait is over. That hope fades into day to day routine. That anxiety leaves. Love is a calm. It creates a whole new routine. It surrounds your life in ways you didn’t know possible until you’ve lost it. Buying groceries and watching t.v. becomes painful. You feel pain in places/parts on your body that you didn’t know you had. You see your human come out. You see sides of the planet you never could see. Things you certainly didn’t want to know. People who haven’t felt heartbreak will never understand until they do. People of any age can be struck by it. Only the ones it’s happened to can understand. It just makes it that much more painful to be completely alone, everyone elses feelings obsolete. Back to time, because even something like time with no physical presence can hurt. Every minute hurts, every tick on a clock is a stab in the chest. It’s just how it is. The physical pain is just one aspect that a heartbroken has to move past. The emotional scars, if not healed properly, can last a lifetime. Can cause issues in finding happiness once more. Tick tock.

I guess working brings out my dark side! It’s sort of accurate though, you tell me?

The Best Guide Out There On the Best Stuff You’ll Actually Want At College… For Girls.

I was fairly well packed for college. But when I got there, I was missing a few things. Over this past year, I’ve learned what you actually need, and what you won’t need. If you want to be in a sorority and go to a private school like myself, I have some very insightful notions for you. And for everyone else… Charlotte Russe and Express are the places for you. Besides the usual microwaves and mini fridges, P.B. Teen can do all that for you. If you’re looking to conform, this is a great list. But when it comes to the true necessities.. I got you girls 😉

Oh yeah and that line about, “Only bring what you’re going to use.” B.S. You will find usage for almost everything you can possibly think of in college. From banana suits to eyelash glue.

1. If it rains wherever you’re going to go, which it probably will- buy rain boots. I wear mine at least once a month. During the summer Hunter boots are on sale online and in specialty shops. Short one’s, tall one’s, and if you really feel the need.. heeled one’s! (personally I think those are a little ridiculous but.. hey, why not) I would try and find them on eBay, there are usually some great deals.

2. You’re going to want makeup… but your makeup should be BFF’s with your makeup remover. Honestly I can’t even tell you how many time’s I refuse to wash my face but reach for makeup removing towelettes when I’m.. above the influence right? But seriously, necessity. I use the pink grapefruit one’s from Neutrogena because they act as a remover and also as a makeshift acne medication.

3. One of those home-made microwavable rice sacks for when your stomach is hurting or neck from all the studying, partying, sports playing or whatever else you’re doing to make yourself sore.

4. Chapstick- you will need one hundred chapsticks. Maybe not quite as many.. but if you lose everything like I do, they will all be gone within the first week.

Along with that.. hair ties. Nothing is more annoying then when you can’t find hair ties.

5. A large amount of pens.

6. Nail polish + remover, file, clippers. I didn’t get a single mani pedi during my freshman year, to keep your feet and fingers from looking disgusting before flip flop season, these are recommended.

7. Head phones. Your roommate will be annoying, and you’ll want them. Or, if everyone is athletic at your school like they are at mine and you feel the need to run everyday, bring them for those occassions as well.

8. A baseball hat. Steal one from your boyfriend or buy one from the school store, half way through the semester when you’re late to your class and hair looks like Lady Gaga’s you’ll thank me.

9. A waterproof light jacket. This is great to throw on… always. And everyone will have them. Promise.

10. A Longchamp bag or one like it. For the longest time I refused to join the pretty rich girl party and buy one, and with coming to college you slowly and painfully start to realize that they become the most convenient things you will own. Wonder, a store in NYC sells bags a-lot like Longchamp but a tad cheaper and way more original. But that doesn’t mean a book bag isn’t a good idea. Get one with back support and a special place for your laptop and water bottle.

11. Winter boots. Ugg’s are great and all for walking around the dorms, but when it comes to slopping around in slush and cold you should consider a pair of Sorel’s or North Face boots. Also the L.L. Bean Duck boot is usually sold out within the first start of fall, so if you’re thinking about ordering those order them A.S.A.P. before they are back-ordered. Great boots, and look awesome too.

12. Long Puffy Coat. One of my biggest regrets was not dishing out the cash to buy one of these babies. For freezing cold lacrosse games and wintry days I seriously could have used this. You will never have to worry about a cold butt on a bleacher again. Best choice is a North Face Transit or Metropolis Jacket. They usually are hard to find but on sale during spring/summer.

13. Black leggings. Everyone wears them. Sometimes when the probably shouldn’t. But they are extremely comfortable, easy, and quick. For some reason in which I can’t figure out, everyone believes they make you look more put together than if you just threw on sweatpants or yoga pants even. You can get them for under $10 at Forever 21.. just make sure the underwear you wear with them don’t say anything too incriminating on the ass.

14. Water bottles or a reusable one with a filter. I like the whole idea of going green, but in the mornings I reached under my night stand for a plastic land fill headed water bottle and ran. Second semester I was given a Sigg and I haven’t gone back. Water bottles begin to be expensive, and your dorm water probably won’t taste the greatest. Get a Brita water bottle that has a filter which you can replace. They’re great.

15. Keurig and K-Cups. This thing is honestly worth the money. Just get one.

16. Sunglasses. Any kind, I suggest Ray-Ban Wayfarers or Aviators. They’re cool and easy.

17. 3-4 Towels. If you’re like me, hygiene is overwhelmingly important. I shower twice a day, and wash towels every week. I really hate having to use a towel unwashed more than once.

18. Tampons and pads. A-lot of tampons. Don’t forget ’em.

19. Advil or something like it.

20. A non plastic shower caddy. If you can find one that you can throw in the washer and dryer, do it. Those things grow mold and collect so many germs. If you want to be safe, P.B. Teen has a really great one that you could use all four years and not worry.

21. A cover for your toothbrush. Trust me, you’ll want it.

22. A vest. They’re warm enough but not too warm.

23. Snacks. Get some of your favorite snacks and keep them stashed in your room, they’re awesome for late night snacking.

24. A T.V. with DVD player. If you’re going to have a T.V., make it small enough for space for other things. And make sure it has a DVD player. They’re pointless without one.

25. A light for your bed. Late night studying and reading cause for the usage of these little lamps. Wal-Mart and Bed Bath and Beyond carry them.

26. Planner. Some sort of planner to keep your day’s in check. I use a plain white notebook and just create my own.

27. Socks. Many pairs of socks. ALL kinds.

28. Tresemme Split Remedy Cream. I straighten my hair usually when I go out, and it is really thin and susceptible to split ends. This stuff gets rid of 80% of split ends after 3 uses… my hero. Makes frequent trips to the salon all the way back in New York less urgent.

29. Comfy Sweater and Sweat Pants. You’ll randomly want to be really comfy and these are great to just throw on and bum around. Yoga pant’s and legging’s get old.

30. Dressy clothes. A plethora of cute clothing is needed for weekends. Black skirt, tank top, black heels is the easiest. Or sexy dresses and heels, or jeans and a cute top. They are all needed.

31. Lotion. Scented or whatever you need to keep your skin soft and comfortable.

32. A place to hide your alcohol.

33. Wine and bottle opener.

34. Paper towels.

35. Forks.

35. Instant Ramen noodles.

36. Shower flip flops.

37. A bathrobe. Best one is the silk kind from Victoria Secret. Warm enough for winter showers, chill enough for spring/summer showers.

38. Victoria’s Secret Pink anything.

39. Bathing suit. For recreational, tanning, and or exercise purposes.

40. A rug. It gets really annoying to just be on a hard, gross floor. Also, a mini vacuum comes in handy.

41. Bronzer. You’re most likely going to start looking a litttlleeee bit pasty..

42. Umbrella.

43. Camera. Of any sort, to document what is said to be the “best years of your life.”

44. Face lotion with sunscreen.

45. A lanyard. Keep your keys on, or something to hold all of them in your purse.

46. Athletic clothing/shoes. For lazy days, gym classes, and work-out-aholics.

47. A fan.

48. Bins. To hold stuff.

49. Q-Tips.

50. Leather or pleather boots. People like to wear knee-high leather boots. Stylish, cute, and if you buy the 2 for $30 at Charlotte Russe, a bargain!

And everything else you use that you think you will need. If you think you will, then you probably will.

But the MOST important non shallow thing you need to have in college is your brain. Use it. Get straight A’s… Or something like that, and when a frat guy asks if you want to take a “tour” of the upstairs, say no. Watch your drink, watch your intake, and watch out for yourself and your friends!

Four Letter Word That Don’t Mean A Thang.

Alright, I’m no Carrie Bradshaw- er, Candace Bushnell; but I think of love a-lot differently than I used too. So I’m going to write about it. One whole year of my life I felt as though a chunk of me was missing. I couldn’t decide where it was located, or where it had gone. My original idea was that it was my heart. A chunk of my heart just fell out and was floating somewhere inside me. Or maybe it just disappeared. And then I started fearing that it was my brain, my mind. Maybe I was losing my mind and none of this was really real. It shouldn’t be after all, I was only 18 going on 19. I was young, too young to be feeling anything but gaiety and expecting a future that’s mostly just in my dreams. I was in a world full of people and I felt no one truly understood. Because, I didn’t understand. I still think I am too young to understand what had happened to me. When you get so distraught that letters written in a book hurt you to look at, and you don’t want to fall asleep because your life is already a full blown nightmare. Literally everything made your stomach hurt. No one’s words would help. To this day, I cannot find out why God chose me to be the one who suffered for so long. Wanting to end my life because of what- a boy? That’s not me. That’s not us. Not who we should be. After endless praying and countless arguments, my advice to those who feel like their hearts are crumbling, or you can’t figure out why you’re so paranoid, is that no one else will be able to help you. Yeah, sucks. Only you yourself can bring you back. As my iPad lock screen says to me everyday, “sometimes the world doesn’t give you what you want, not because you don’t deserve it, but because you deserve better.” The worlds not against you, you are against you. And only you can fix it.

Morning Sickness.

I HATE mornings. HATE HATE HATE. I decided this on Tuesday of this week when I had to go back to my previous 5 year schedule of waking up at 6 a.m and it was not pretty. It made me realize truly what an extra couple of hours of sleep could do for you. Your face is refreshed, you don’t hate the world, your days are overall better. At least, this is the conclusion I have come too. Do you agree? Anyways, after 4 cups of coffee and an illegal dunkin trip during school I sort of came to. But I still had a jittery feeling, and the heels didn’t help. So do me a favor, let me sleep, and you sleep too. The whole world will be a better place 😉

San Tan-Tonio.

My new favorite nail polish by O.P.I is San Tan-Tonio, not only because of the name but because of the pretty, perfect nude color it is. I would love for my skin to be that color. It reminds me of the great race to become bronzed. “I really need to get tan,” I think this thought at least twice a day. Then in my mind I go through all the many ways I can try and get tan. Go outside, too cold. Use a bronzer, greasy. Use a lotion, possibility of becoming orange is great, and becoming tan is slim. And then there it is.. using a tanning bed. It seems to be the only way in March to get a real (somewhat), tan glow that I have been waiting for here in the CNY. So, why can’t I commit? Is it because I know the dangers it brings, or.. is it because I’m just too lazy to do it everyday. I’m pretty sure its the second one, even though skin cancer is a growing problem. Is fake baking just the same as, getting “baked”? Am I losing all sense of reality and at the same time.. harming my body? Ask yourself, too. Tanning is a whole new drug.

Valentino!

Valentines day is coming up so soon! Are you excited or do you hate it? I personally love it, and I want to help clear up the gift giving craziness. If you do want to give a boyfriend a gift, here are some simple inexpensive ways to make his heart melt! Together, Urban Outfitters and I will show you the funniest and sweetest ways to make them happy.

  • Write a love note, cute and effective. Buy one of those jumbo cards or just make your own and make it personal. Make sure to mention all of the stuff he does that makes you so happy, and that you appreciate it very much!
  • Make him a cd, corny yes, but if he loves music then opening him up to the music you know you’ll both love is adorable and cheap.

– Get him a guitar pick of his favorite color!

  • Go to your local Big-lots or Wal-Mart and get a few of his favorite movies that you don’t really like, or movies that you both love. Either way he will be so excited that you get to watch them together. Make sure you make it a package, with his favorite candy and maybe make him a blanket using the old tie-ing the sides together trick of a fabric patterned with his favorite sports teams fabric.

– Some quirky extras from one of my favorite websites!

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Make him laugh 🙂

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