Month: December 2013

So room keys are now obsolete; first thing I learned once we landed in Orlando, Florida for our somewhat annual family vacation. Disney is completely re-doing their system with these “bands,” that come personalized when you arrive, have different colors for different dining plans and park passes, are your room key and even credit card for your time there. It’s actually kind of convenient even it they’re ugly. (Shown below) Although I’m always up for the Mickey Mouse head shape anywhere. I love Mickey. After not having been in Disney for quite some time, it was actually really refreshing to get some of my youth back. In college you feel like you’re growing up so fast, it’s so fast you can’t stop it. I think that’s one of the reasons I hate roller coasters so much, even though you’re in a controlled space you’re not in control really, because they won’t stop the ride when you’re upside down and screaming if it’s going by too fast. So Disney is stopping my ride for a bit, and it feels nice to be under repair. Everyone needs a little bit of a detox sometimes. I got my first Movado watch in Orlando, 50% off at the outlet mall. Best find ever, although 50% isn’t actually that helpful in the long run. Either way, I’m very proud and I know Amanda Seyfried is somewhere looking down at her wrist into her Movado dial just as I am. Happy New Year to me.

Facebook decided to create this wonderful little collage of everything “major” that has happened to me in 2013, but it neglected to see what really went on. It actually made me feel bad about myself for a couple of minutes, until I looked behind the vail of social media. First off, I think I have grown a lot as a person. Not sure to where or what, but I know that on New Years Eve of 2012 I knew that I was going to survive and be okay after a horrible time struggling to maintain a healthy weight and a healthy body. I knew that I was going to have a long road of school ahead of me to make up for leaving for a semester, friendships I would have to repair, and even a failed relationship that broke me up all over again. But I knew I had to survive. I went to London, I was finally back on stage in a musical, I fixed relationships with friends that had diminished when I had to leave school. I am working on being me again. Although I was given up on in many ways, I learned in 2013 not to give up on myself. It’s very hard to remember to do, and it’s even harder to set resolutions for this next year. It’s amazing what a broken heart can really do. I hope that everyone else remembers what life is really about, because as I am learning it’s truth and beauty the hard way as needed, and it is so important. In many ways I am the luckiest girl on earth, for having my parents still here and still together, for having a job, an education, amazing friends, sisters and a sister, and for everything else. It’s just hard to remember. So for this New Years, I am going to focus on all the old that I have, and not so much the new. When I focus too hard on the future, I begin to feel disheartened and disappointed, worried and stressed. I am going to focus on the now, what I have in the now, and who I am. Below are some moments from 2013.