Month: March 2013

Lately I have been dealing with a lot of external changes in my life. I am growing up and at the same time trying to stay as young as possible. I don’t want to be full on Gap but I don’t want to be Baby Gap either you know..? I have tried doing the whole “by you fall clothes in spring and winter clothes in summer”, but it is really hard not only on my heart to make the adjustment but my wallet as well. I have decided to implement a new system. I may buy some things in that manner, but I won’t stress over perfecting it any longer. Instead, I am going to start Shopbop Monthly. I am going to alott myself $100-150 to spend on http://www.shopbop.com once a month, and buy quality, not quantity. I have realized that those crazy things I buy from Forever 21 are rarely worn more than once or twice, and the amount of money I spend on cheap stuff I could save and buy something I know I will always be using. Like that beautiful 3.1 Phillip Lim bag.. or those Pringle flats or J brand Jacket. If I actually succeed at this, I will post my buys on here for your scrutiny. After a few months, we’ll see if my wardrobe has significantly improved, or if it has stayed in the early 2000’s.

Sometimes I just want to rip my heart out of my chest. A lot of the time the tugging on it just seems like it’s ready to go willingly. It’s like all of my thoughts become potential lyrics for a Taylor Swift song; except more annoying, if that’s even possible. It feels stupid, but that doesn’t mean they don’t stop writing themselves. Like that scene from Harry Potter where the bitchy pink cat lady tortures Harry into writing “I will not tell lies,” into his skin. I feel that all over all day long, you just can’t see it. These words teleport from my brain back and forth from my heart. Making pit stops along the way to my lungs, my amrs, my hands, my mouth. Instead of creating a very unfortunate case of word vomit, I let my hands do the talking and write it out. There are just so many “feelings.” It’s actually more lame than it sounds. Feelings that make you feel things all day long. That feeling to cry learning about political science. It’s a common occurrence but this time “feelings” have other motives. They just don’t stop, they take you over. Why is it that when people feel for each other, there is a point where feelings change or are forced away. Why don’t I know these tricks? Why does my stomach constantly feel like it’s in the wake of buyers remorse? How come some can box them up and throw them out, and I can’t? My best friends Christine and Rachel tell me that feeling is something you can control if you learn how and practice really hard. Chelsea Handler tells me that feeling is something she only has when she is touching herself. Both are extremely unnerving to me in many ways. What I really want to know is…how to get rid of feelings without starting the process like that fat girl who “has a lot of feelings,” in Mean Girls. I actually do go here. Now where do I go from there…?

To whom it may concern, 

I apologize for the scarcity that is my writing and inspiration that is needed for it. Lately, I have been doing a-lot of work for journalism and reporting really throws off and cuts off my creative brain flow. It wasn’t until I was simultaneously on Instagram and watching The Big Bang Theory. Which by the way.. coolest opener for a t.v. show in a long time, don’t ya think? Anyways, I realized how much I truly love Kaley Cuoco, and I would probably say she is one of my favorite actresses. The evidence just started piling up, her acting in 8 Simple Rules, Crimes of Fashion, and now The Big Bang Theory and those random Priceline commercials.. and the best part is her amazingly entertaining instagram. Not too braggy, almost too many pictures of dogs, with just the right amount of closet. I love her style, and the incredible way she can put her hair up in this extremely messy tiny bun and look perfectly not put together. Kind of thing everyone wishes they could do every day but just fail at. I pulled pictures from her Instagram and Amy Davidson’s, her co-star from 8 Simple Rules and adorably still her good friend or so it looks. The point of this post is really more for you to try and appreciate Kaley Cuoco as much as I do, no longer as an underrated celebrity and now as a fabulous blonde bombshell. Also, not sure who Norman Cook is, but I’d love to find out! Tell us more, Kaley-er, Norman!